I’m going to confess…
I have not done much for about a week. And, I mean…. I have barely left the house.
Isn’t that awful!
Unfortunately, the dog has a broken tail. But, it’s our dog, so it never ends just there. A very long story short is that her tail got a skin infection due to the dressings to fix the break. We took it upon ourselves to do the needed dressing changes. There was a risk of the bandages coming off, and if they did while we were not home, the dog would a.) be in pain and b.) because of the pain start gnawing at her tail, making the infection worse… if not doing even more damage, like biting her tail to oblivion.
So, I spent the week sitting with the dog making sure she didn’t move to much.
Her bandages came off once because she was wagging her tail in excitement.
It was not good.
Didn’t want it to happen while I was home alone.
Really, really, really… did not want that to happen while I was home alone.
So, the good news is… YAY!… her tail is all better. We got the infection healed and now we wait for the break to get better.
as luck would have it
the boyfriend got sick.
So then I was taking care of two beings. One on a continual “stay”. The other needing some TLC and fresh orange juice.
I have been wanting to try this recipe for a while. My biggest delay was just getting to the asian market. Since I was home, and wasn’t going to be going anywhere, I decided this week was kind of a now or never time to do it.
Like the dog and the boyfriend, this recipe needs babysitting.
A while back, I found this website cause someone (sorry, I don’t remember who) sent out a tweet about one recipe and then I started searching around and found this recipe. (Note, his site is not vegan, although I have found a few other vegan recipes that look amazing.)
So, he calls this coconut jam. I think it doesn’t matter what it is called… but for me, I will be using this as a Dulce de Leche substitute. First off, dulce de leche is translated as “sweet of the milk”.. this is caramelized, reduced coconut milk… see where I am going with this.
This morning I went and bought a loaf of my favorite baguette. Tore it open and spread this goodness all over it.
Yes. I got a bit of a sugar high.
You know what though… I really needed this.
I know that sounds silly. Why would someone need bread smothered in sweet caramel milk? The simple answer is that sometimes each and everyone of us needs to do something to nurture ourselves. We all get to a point where we give and give and give. And, please, do not get me wrong. I have no complaints…none, no way, no how… about taking care of those that matter to me most. If I have to sit with the dog for the next month or make soup for the rest of my life to keep my boyfriend healthy… make no mistake, that is what I will do. But, I would also be lying if I said I didn’t need “me” time. Because I do. It is not everyday. It sometimes is not even every month. Every so often, however, the spring in my step has lessened. I like to think that I am aware enough, in those moments, that to be my best and get the oomph back to do what needs to be done, that I can take the time to do that small thing for me. Most days, it is a walk in my neighborhood. Sometimes, it is taking myself to dinner with a great book.
Today, it was scarfing down a quarter of a baguette smeared with this bronzed deliciousness.
Notes about this recipe: like mentioned in the original recipe post, this does take a long time. Mine took three hours of being within a few steps of the stove. Also, I used piloncillo sugar which is a lighter brown mexican sugar. That is why mine never got as dark as the authors. The taste of this suits me fine, but I will be trying with a darker sugar, as well, to see what that does. I have no idea what pandan leaves are, I don’t know how they were useful in this recipe, but I used it. Everything is readily available in an asian or international market.